his amor | 18

Ellie Rose ~

I took a deep breathe as I sat down at the edge of the bed. I've been waiting for Mason for hours all ready. After Cudding with him for few hours in the morning, he'd a urgent call and he left without saying anything and since that he didn't come back home yet. It's already 8 pm and he was supposed to take me to the dinner.

I hope he's okay

I was deep in thought when I felt a hand on my back. I quickly turned around only to be greeted by Diana's smiling face.

"Are you okay, El?" She asked sitting down beside me.

"I'm just worried for Mason, he isn't home yet" I murmured looking down playing with the hem of my dress.

"Don't worry, he's the dangerous Mason Williams. He'll be definitely fine" Diana kissed the side of my head and I let out a sighed, nodding.

"By the way, you're looking absolutely stunning" Diana said. A grin tugging on her lips. "Thank you, Dia" I mumbled giving her a small smile than looking back down causing her to sighed.

Before diana could speak, my bedroom door got opened and Matteo's head propped out.

"Mason is back and he's in his office" Matteo said causing a smile to tugged at my lips. "Go and get your man" Diana nudge me with a devilish smirk. I didn't waste a second and quickly walked out from my room heading downstairs. I quickly passed the hallway and reached in front of his office large wooden door.

"Ms Rose, we can't let you go inside" One of the guard said.

"What do you mean by 'you can't let me go inside'?" I asked as my eyebrows scrunched together. I was so impatient to see him. It's like I can't stay a second without him and I couldn't take it anymore.

"Ms-" before he could even completed his sentence I pushed the wooden door opened and I immediately regret. Mason sitting on the chair with sophia on his lap and she's almost half naked as they were making out.

You know the feeling? Because I couldn't described it in words. My eyes watered and I felt as my heart just stopped breaking into pieces. I was freeze. I didn't even noticed when a tear roll down my left cheek. He break away from the kiss and his blue eyes met mine.

"M-Mason.. how could you?" My words come out as whispered as sophia turned to face me with smirk plastered on her face. I was so damn hurt that I couldn't even uttered a word out. He stood up from his chair with his arms around sophia's waist.

"I was planning to tell you about it but you just saw it by your own, so I guess it's clear for you, Ellie " he said walking towards me with a smirk playing on his face. "It was all just a pretend. I don't feel anything for you, I never have"

"I know you're lying" I replied glancing at smirking sophia than looking back-up at him. Mason throw his head back laughing.

"C'mon Ellie, That all was just a pretend. I just used you as my every night sex toy just like other fucking 'slut' woman" he said and I felt as my blood boiling inside. Those past few months with me meant nothing to him? All those moments, when he told me he'll always stay with me, he'll never hurt me, he'll love me always and forever no matter what and will never leave my side. It all was lie? He said he'll protect me, We'll grow older together. This all was lie? Fake promises?

"Please stop lying to yourself, Mason. You love me and I could see it in your eyes" I said through gritting teeth. "You're doing all these for her? This bit-" but he cut me off.

"Don't fucking dare to call her bitch, You never meant anything to me Ellie. When I first saw you, I just wanted you in bed and than I'd to pretend all this few months to have you in bed until I got back with sophia again" he said through gritting teeth moving closer to my face, looking dead into my eyes. His words were like knife to my heart. His every word made my heart to ripped off and his every words hurt me so fucking hard that i'm afraid if it would heal ever again but I can't let him have the satisfaction of hurting me so bad.

"You're just like other fucking womans, So needy slut and so fucking innocent to think that I would fall for a woman like you which is impossible because I only love sophia" he said with a smirk. I glanced at sophia to see her smirking at me.

"I'm feeling sad for you, Ellie Rose" She said crossing her arms over her chest. "Mason is mine and he only loves me. I thought you'll get it when you saw us on the coffee shop kissing"

"Even I've been sleeping with many woman behind your back a while now even sophia. We're together now, so you better get in that little head of yours that 'I don't fucking love you and I never have'. You meant nothing to me and I'm just so done pretending" he said when more tears rolled down my cheeks and I looked down wiping them but it keeps coming back.

I know he didn't meant anything he's saying. He loves me and I can see that in his eyes. No matter how hard he tries, I know he only loves me. My heart saying that he'd meant everything he told me in the morning. Than Why's he doing this? Why's he hurting me so much?

"This is not you.. " I whispered looking up at him into his eyes that filled with nothing, no emotion.

"This is me" he lightly chuckled, lighting a cigarette. "This is me, Mason Williams. Oh, you thought I'm sweet and kind? Well, you're so fucking wrong darling. I'm tired of pretending and if you're done with these shits than you can leave" he said smirking and walking to sophia. I shut my eyes closed when he kissed her on her lips.

How could I be so fucking stupid?

"I'm tired with these shits-" before he could completed his sentence, I walked over to him and slapped him hard on his cheek. It hurts so fucking bad that I couldn't breathe properly.

"You know what, I hate you and I hate you so fucking much Mason Williams. I loved you so much and you played with my feelings. You fucking used me! I THOUGHT YOU WERE CHANGING BUT NO!" I raised my voice as anger, regret and betrayal took place inside me.

"You can't change" I whispered shaking my head.

"People said right, You're heartless, ruthless, doesn't give a fuck about anyone and-" before I could finished he wrapped his knuckles around my brown locks and tugged them down looking into my eyes. His jaw clenched and his eyes filled with fire.

"I don't fucking appreciate your tone of voice, Ellie. You better not talked with me like that or-"

"Or what? You'll kill me, right? C'mon kill me" I said smiling causing him to grinned evilly.

"If I could I would've killed you right now but I won't because I need you for my work" he said. A whimpered left my lips when he tugged down my hair more roughly.

"But just after I'm done with that work, I'll kill you because I don't want to see that face of yours anymore " he muttered.

God.. it hurts so bad.

"Than.. I'm packing my shits and I'm leaving" I said looking up at him. I can't the hold the tears anymore and I'm afraid I might end up breaking into tears in front of him. He was silent as he stared at me.

"And I'll make sure to never show my face again, Mason Williams" I whispered the last part and turned on my heels to leave but he grabbed my arm.

"You're not going anywhere" He spoke breaking the silence. I jerked my arm from his grip. "I'll and you can't fucking stop me from that!" I raised my voice again looking dead into his eyes. He was surprised for seconds. I was about to leave again but he grabbed my arm and yanked me closer to him.

"I. Said. You're. Not. Going. Anywhere" he said through gritting teeth. His jaw so tightened that he could break his teeth from the pressure.

"We're over Mason Williams and I'll leave from here and you've no right to stop me" I said "And I hate you" I whispered as his face got neutral. There was a unknown emotion in his eyes that I couldn't understand nor I want to anymore.

"You never loved me but I did.. and I don't want to get in your happiness.. if you're happy with her than I'm happy for you, Mason Williams" I bite my lip restraining myself from breaking into tears. He stared at me as I took a stepped back with tears rolling down my cheeks and slowly took off the beautiful necklace written 'My bella' he'd given me on our first date.

My chest ache from pain. I couldn't take it anymore.

"Have a good life and thank you for all the memories" I smiled with tears in my eyes handing him the necklace.

"Thank you for my birthday gift too" I said wiping my tears. His eyes never left me when I cupped his face and last time kissed him on his lips with hatred, so that he knows how much I hates him. Surprisingly he instantly kissed me back. His strong arms wrapped around me so tightly like he doesn't want to let go off me but I knew It was his another pretend. His eyebrows coming together like he's in pain as he kissed me hard with all his emotions and love.

"Bella I-" he cut off by me.

"I don't want to see your face too" I muttered because this is what I felt for him now. Hatred. I put my hands on his chest looking into his blue eyes that once used to be filled with love for me and stepped back.

"Goodbye Ellie" Sophie grinned hugging Mason from behind.

"I won't regret it" he said with his jaw clenched. I glanced at sophia than looked back-up at him nodding.

"Good" that's all I said and turned on my heels storming out from his office quickly running down the hallway, crying.

He never loved me.

I meant nothing to him.

I was so fucking stupid to think that he would love me, After all he's Mason Williams and tonight he made me felt like those other woman he slept with. Pathetic. I was feeling so disgusting of myself. I was so stupid to fall for him, to love him.

Hatred, guilty, regret, betrayal, helpless this is all I was feeling at this moment. I wiped my tears but couldn't stopped them from coming back. I don't want to cry but it hurts so bad.

What have I done to deserve this?

"Ellie, are-" Amara cut off as I run upstairs to my bedroom passing her. I quickly packed my clothes and turned around to see all of them standing with confused.

"Little girl, Please tell me-"

"I'm leaving" that's all I said and quickly walked past them but as I reached downstairs to the door, someone grabbed my arm stopping me. I turned around to see Matteo. He's almost out of breathe.

"But where? I can't let you go anywhere- it's not safe for you" Matteo said getting woried as his eyebrows coming together.

"Anywhere.. to die" I whispered the last part and jerked my arm from his grip. "Don't follow me" I said as he shook his head. I quickly stepped back when I saw Diana running downstairs towards me asking me to stop.

"Ellie for god sake wait! ELLIE-"

I heard Matteo and Diana calling me when I get out from the mansion. A cool breeze hit my skin as I didn't put on any jacket and it was cold outside. I quickly pulled out the car keys and started the engine. Tears flowing down my cheeks as I speed off the car god knows to where.

Don't look back.

Never ever again.

Even if we don't last forever, if we end up speaking never again, No matter how far I go away from him, no matter how much I hate him, I'll always know that in this moment,

Mason was my everything to me..

******

It was such a sad chapter 🥺🤧

Anyway, Thank you so much for reading ❤❤

And once again, Thank you so so much for the reads and votes

It really means so so much to me ❤🥺🤧

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Ellie Rose ~

I took a deep breathe as I sat down at the edge of the bed. I've been waiting for Mason for hours all ready. After Cudding with him for few hours in the morning, he'd a urgent call and he left without saying anything and since that he didn't come back home yet. It's already 8 pm and he was supposed to take me to the dinner.

I hope he's okay

I was deep in thought when I felt a hand on my back. I quickly turned around only to be greeted by Diana's smiling face.

"Are you okay, El?" She asked sitting down beside me.

"I'm just worried for Mason, he isn't home yet" I murmured looking down playing with the hem of my dress.

"Don't worry, he's the dangerous Mason Williams. He'll be definitely fine" Diana kissed the side of my head and I let out a sighed, nodding.

"By the way, you're looking absolutely stunning" Diana said. A grin tugging on her lips. "Thank you, Dia" I mumbled giving her a small smile than looking back down causing her to sighed.

Before diana could speak, my bedroom door got opened and Matteo's head propped out.

"Mason is back and he's in his office" Matteo said causing a smile to tugged at my lips. "Go and get your man" Diana nudge me with a devilish smirk. I didn't waste a second and quickly walked out from my room heading downstairs. I quickly passed the hallway and reached in front of his office large wooden door.

"Ms Rose, we can't let you go inside" One of the guard said.

"What do you mean by 'you can't let me go inside'?" I asked as my eyebrows scrunched together. I was so impatient to see him. It's like I can't stay a second without him and I couldn't take it anymore.

"Ms-" before he could even completed his sentence I pushed the wooden door opened and I immediately regret. Mason sitting on the chair with sophia on his lap and she's almost half naked as they were making out.

You know the feeling? Because I couldn't described it in words. My eyes watered and I felt as my heart just stopped breaking into pieces. I was freeze. I didn't even noticed when a tear roll down my left cheek. He break away from the kiss and his blue eyes met mine.

"M-Mason.. how could you?" My words come out as whispered as sophia turned to face me with smirk plastered on her face. I was so damn hurt that I couldn't even uttered a word out. He stood up from his chair with his arms around sophia's waist.

"I was planning to tell you about it but you just saw it by your own, so I guess it's clear for you, Ellie " he said walking towards me with a smirk playing on his face. "It was all just a pretend. I don't feel anything for you, I never have"

"I know you're lying" I replied glancing at smirking sophia than looking back-up at him. Mason throw his head back laughing.

"C'mon Ellie, That all was just a pretend. I just used you as my every night sex toy just like other fucking 'slut' woman" he said and I felt as my blood boiling inside. Those past few months with me meant nothing to him? All those moments, when he told me he'll always stay with me, he'll never hurt me, he'll love me always and forever no matter what and will never leave my side. It all was lie? He said he'll protect me, We'll grow older together. This all was lie? Fake promises?

"Please stop lying to yourself, Mason. You love me and I could see it in your eyes" I said through gritting teeth. "You're doing all these for her? This bit-" but he cut me off.

"Don't fucking dare to call her bitch, You never meant anything to me Ellie. When I first saw you, I just wanted you in bed and than I'd to pretend all this few months to have you in bed until I got back with sophia again" he said through gritting teeth moving closer to my face, looking dead into my eyes. His words were like knife to my heart. His every word made my heart to ripped off and his every words hurt me so fucking hard that i'm afraid if it would heal ever again but I can't let him have the satisfaction of hurting me so bad.

"You're just like other fucking womans, So needy slut and so fucking innocent to think that I would fall for a woman like you which is impossible because I only love sophia" he said with a smirk. I glanced at sophia to see her smirking at me.

"I'm feeling sad for you, Ellie Rose" She said crossing her arms over her chest. "Mason is mine and he only loves me. I thought you'll get it when you saw us on the coffee shop kissing"

"Even I've been sleeping with many woman behind your back a while now even sophia. We're together now, so you better get in that little head of yours that 'I don't fucking love you and I never have'. You meant nothing to me and I'm just so done pretending" he said when more tears rolled down my cheeks and I looked down wiping them but it keeps coming back.

I know he didn't meant anything he's saying. He loves me and I can see that in his eyes. No matter how hard he tries, I know he only loves me. My heart saying that he'd meant everything he told me in the morning. Than Why's he doing this? Why's he hurting me so much?

"This is not you.. " I whispered looking up at him into his eyes that filled with nothing, no emotion.

"This is me" he lightly chuckled, lighting a cigarette. "This is me, Mason Williams. Oh, you thought I'm sweet and kind? Well, you're so fucking wrong darling. I'm tired of pretending and if you're done with these shits than you can leave" he said smirking and walking to sophia. I shut my eyes closed when he kissed her on her lips.

How could I be so fucking stupid?

"I'm tired with these shits-" before he could completed his sentence, I walked over to him and slapped him hard on his cheek. It hurts so fucking bad that I couldn't breathe properly.

"You know what, I hate you and I hate you so fucking much Mason Williams. I loved you so much and you played with my feelings. You fucking used me! I THOUGHT YOU WERE CHANGING BUT NO!" I raised my voice as anger, regret and betrayal took place inside me.

"You can't change" I whispered shaking my head.

"People said right, You're heartless, ruthless, doesn't give a fuck about anyone and-" before I could finished he wrapped his knuckles around my brown locks and tugged them down looking into my eyes. His jaw clenched and his eyes filled with fire.

"I don't fucking appreciate your tone of voice, Ellie. You better not talked with me like that or-"

"Or what? You'll kill me, right? C'mon kill me" I said smiling causing him to grinned evilly.

"If I could I would've killed you right now but I won't because I need you for my work" he said. A whimpered left my lips when he tugged down my hair more roughly.

"But just after I'm done with that work, I'll kill you because I don't want to see that face of yours anymore " he muttered.

God.. it hurts so bad.

"Than.. I'm packing my shits and I'm leaving" I said looking up at him. I can't the hold the tears anymore and I'm afraid I might end up breaking into tears in front of him. He was silent as he stared at me.

"And I'll make sure to never show my face again, Mason Williams" I whispered the last part and turned on my heels to leave but he grabbed my arm.

"You're not going anywhere" He spoke breaking the silence. I jerked my arm from his grip. "I'll and you can't fucking stop me from that!" I raised my voice again looking dead into his eyes. He was surprised for seconds. I was about to leave again but he grabbed my arm and yanked me closer to him.

"I. Said. You're. Not. Going. Anywhere" he said through gritting teeth. His jaw so tightened that he could break his teeth from the pressure.

"We're over Mason Williams and I'll leave from here and you've no right to stop me" I said "And I hate you" I whispered as his face got neutral. There was a unknown emotion in his eyes that I couldn't understand nor I want to anymore.

"You never loved me but I did.. and I don't want to get in your happiness.. if you're happy with her than I'm happy for you, Mason Williams" I bite my lip restraining myself from breaking into tears. He stared at me as I took a stepped back with tears rolling down my cheeks and slowly took off the beautiful necklace written 'My bella' he'd given me on our first date.

My chest ache from pain. I couldn't take it anymore.

"Have a good life and thank you for all the memories" I smiled with tears in my eyes handing him the necklace.

"Thank you for my birthday gift too" I said wiping my tears. His eyes never left me when I cupped his face and last time kissed him on his lips with hatred, so that he knows how much I hates him. Surprisingly he instantly kissed me back. His strong arms wrapped around me so tightly like he doesn't want to let go off me but I knew It was his another pretend. His eyebrows coming together like he's in pain as he kissed me hard with all his emotions and love.

"Bella I-" he cut off by me.

"I don't want to see your face too" I muttered because this is what I felt for him now. Hatred. I put my hands on his chest looking into his blue eyes that once used to be filled with love for me and stepped back.

"Goodbye Ellie" Sophie grinned hugging Mason from behind.

"I won't regret it" he said with his jaw clenched. I glanced at sophia than looked back-up at him nodding.

"Good" that's all I said and turned on my heels storming out from his office quickly running down the hallway, crying.

He never loved me.

I meant nothing to him.

I was so fucking stupid to think that he would love me, After all he's Mason Williams and tonight he made me felt like those other woman he slept with. Pathetic. I was feeling so disgusting of myself. I was so stupid to fall for him, to love him.

Hatred, guilty, regret, betrayal, helpless this is all I was feeling at this moment. I wiped my tears but couldn't stopped them from coming back. I don't want to cry but it hurts so bad.

What have I done to deserve this?

"Ellie, are-" Amara cut off as I run upstairs to my bedroom passing her. I quickly packed my clothes and turned around to see all of them standing with confused.

"Little girl, Please tell me-"

"I'm leaving" that's all I said and quickly walked past them but as I reached downstairs to the door, someone grabbed my arm stopping me. I turned around to see Matteo. He's almost out of breathe.

"But where? I can't let you go anywhere- it's not safe for you" Matteo said getting woried as his eyebrows coming together.

"Anywhere.. to die" I whispered the last part and jerked my arm from his grip. "Don't follow me" I said as he shook his head. I quickly stepped back when I saw Diana running downstairs towards me asking me to stop.

"Ellie for god sake wait! ELLIE-"

I heard Matteo and Diana calling me when I get out from the mansion. A cool breeze hit my skin as I didn't put on any jacket and it was cold outside. I quickly pulled out the car keys and started the engine. Tears flowing down my cheeks as I speed off the car god knows to where.

Don't look back.

Never ever again.

Even if we don't last forever, if we end up speaking never again, No matter how far I go away from him, no matter how much I hate him, I'll always know that in this moment,

Mason was my everything to me..

******

It was such a sad chapter 🥺🤧

Anyway, Thank you so much for reading ❤❤

And once again, Thank you so so much for the reads and votes

It really means so so much to me ❤🥺🤧

I love each of you really very much ❤

Please keep reading 'His Amore' and keep supporting me

^^

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